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Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Bagels
(While walking Zyk the giant poodle and Mr. Pickles. Anne is riding her scooter, having decorated her arms with the 7 blue plastic grocery bags required to scoop all the crap. The poodles are prolific crappers.)
Anne: Mom, these bags totally make me go way faster. Weeeee!
Me: You look mental. You look like a trailer park version of a solar sail.
Anne: Don't care! I! Am! Awesome!
Me: As much air as those bags are catching, I am pretty sure they are slowing you down.
Anne: Mom, are those basset hounds, beagles, or bagels? I can never tell any of those apart.
Me: Basset hounds. What do you mean you can never tell them apart. Dogs and bread! It's dogs and bread!
Anne: No, I mean, I sometimes say, "I'd like my beagle toasted," or once I said, "I like to eat blueberry basset hounds, but I hate the cinnamon ones." Stuff like that.
Me: What about, "That bagel won't stop barking and I think it crapped on the couch?"
Anne: Seriously, Mom? What is your problem?
Me: I have a Tale of Suffering about a basset hound...
Anne: (scootering away) Nooooooo! I am not listening to another of your tales of misery! How can anyone's childhood be that bad? Go awaaaaaaayyyyyy!!!
Me: Get back here! Get back here or you're carrying the poop bags!
(Anne coasts to a stop, and gives me a look of resigned disgust.)
Me: So, I was 5. For the first few days of kindergarten, your grandmother walked me to school. Then, your uncle was supposed to walk me, but he mostly ditched me by the time we reached the first telephone pole.
Anne: Is this the one about the other kids throwing stones at you? I have heard this one. Many times.
Me: No, no, no! That was in 5th grade. I hope those little shits all ended up like Honey Boo Boo's mom. No, no stone throwing in this one. So, I was walking to kindergarten, and I saw this basset hound. I had never seen one before...
Anne: OMG, Mom. Does the dog die? I am not listening if the dog dies.
Me: Shut up and listen. I am setting a mood. So little me and my bookbag are walking down the street to my school, which was at the top of the street. And there's this basset hound in a front yard across the street, just staring at me. Except he's wearing a little yellow rain slicker and little yellow boots! It was the late 70's! No one put clothes on dogs!
Anne: Who's dog was it?
Me: Some old lady who wore pantsuits. And neckerchiefs. Anyway, I had never seen the dog before LET ALONE A DOG IN A RAINCOAT! It was amazing!
Anne: Cute! So, now does the dog die?
Me: Shut up. So, I stood there for a while and tried to will the basset hound to cross the street and play with me, but he just stared at me. And I wasn't allowed to cross the street. So I decided to sing him a song because he looked sad.
Anne: Hate to break it to you, Mom, but all basset hounds look sad.
Me: I WAS 5!!! So, I sat down on the curb and sang all the songs I knew to him: Happy Birthday, Away in a Manger, Jesus Loves Me, and this one I made up about 4 blue jays. I can't remember how that one goes...
Anne: Thank you, Jesus!
Me: Anyway, next thing I knew, your grandmother comes charging up the street screaming at me. I guess the school called her and told her I hadn't shown up and she came looking for me.
Anne: Oh my God, Mom! How long were you singing at that dog?
Me: Well, I sang each song multiple times. And made up verses. And I tried to tempt him with a stick. He never moved. He just stood there in his little booties, staring at me.
Anne: Do you think the old lady in the pantsuit was watching you from her window and laughing at you? I bet she was.
Me: IT HAD NEVER OCCURRED TO ME, ANNE! THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS MEMORY MORE PAINFUL!
Anne: Also, maybe that's why the other kids threw stones at you. I'm just saying.
Me: I never did pet that basset hound. (sigh)
Anne: How can anyone's childhood be so miserable! Don't you have one happy memory? Just one?
Me: No. Wait.... ummmm.... no.
Anne: What about a teddy bear? Didn't you have a nice teddy that you loved?
Me: DO NOT GO THERE! I DID NOT HAVE A TEDDY! I HAD A GIANT STUFFED THUMB THAT MY DAD GOT ME WHEN I WAS BORN AND EVERY YEAR ON TEDDY BEAR DAY I WAS THE ONLY KID WITH A GIANT THUMB AND EVERYONE LAUGHED AT ME!
Anne: Oh my God, that's awesome! I mean... I love you, Mom.
Me: Nice try.
Anne: What about a favorite book? You love books! What was your favorite book when you were my age?
Me: Oh, that's easy! The Girl With The Silver Eyes! I loved that book!
Anne: See! A happy memory! What was it about?
Me: Ooooh! It was about this girl with silver eyes and she was telekinetic and she had no friends and she ate thick peanut butter sandwiches and orange juice for lunch just like I did! Peanut butter and orange juice was my number one favorite. Number 2 was a mayonnaise sandwich, which probably explains my ass. Her eyes were silver because her mom took this medicine when she was pregnant. Like the flipper children. Never mind. Forget I said that.
Anne: Those are the most disgusting lunches I can imagine. We'll come back to the flippers. You're gross. Is that why the kids threw stones at you?
Me: SO ANYWAY... I figured I must be telekinetic too. I mean, I don't have silver eyes, but my one eye is half brown and half blue so I figured I could move smallish things or maybe start fires. So you know what I did?
Anne: What?
Me: I took a picture of my friend Jenny and set it on my dresser and spent several nights willing it to move.
Anne: No. You. Did. Not.
Me: And then one day I noticed it was gone! I found it in a drawer! So, I figured I had moved it with my mind while I was asleep! I told everyone I had telekinesis! But your grandmother was going through her "doily on the head evangelical" phase and I am pretty sure everyone thought I was a satanist.
Anne: I do that. I try to move things with my mind every night. It's not working yet. I think I'm close. And when I was 6, I spent, like, months trying to fly off the couch or my bed. And the stairs.
Me: How did that work out for you?
Anne: Nothing. Once I thought for sure I went up a little bit, but that was it. I was really surprised that I couldn't fly. I really thought I could. I still do.
Me: Untie one of those bags from your arms. The craptastic wonder twins strike again!
Anne: They are ruining my look. Ooooh! The bags! They're like sails! I can fly!
Me: Yes, you can, baby girl. Here. Hold the poop bag.
~dana
Anne: Mom, these bags totally make me go way faster. Weeeee!
Me: You look mental. You look like a trailer park version of a solar sail.
Anne: Don't care! I! Am! Awesome!
Me: As much air as those bags are catching, I am pretty sure they are slowing you down.
Anne: Mom, are those basset hounds, beagles, or bagels? I can never tell any of those apart.
Me: Basset hounds. What do you mean you can never tell them apart. Dogs and bread! It's dogs and bread!
Anne: No, I mean, I sometimes say, "I'd like my beagle toasted," or once I said, "I like to eat blueberry basset hounds, but I hate the cinnamon ones." Stuff like that.
Me: What about, "That bagel won't stop barking and I think it crapped on the couch?"
Anne: Seriously, Mom? What is your problem?
Me: I have a Tale of Suffering about a basset hound...
Anne: (scootering away) Nooooooo! I am not listening to another of your tales of misery! How can anyone's childhood be that bad? Go awaaaaaaayyyyyy!!!
Me: Get back here! Get back here or you're carrying the poop bags!
(Anne coasts to a stop, and gives me a look of resigned disgust.)
Me: So, I was 5. For the first few days of kindergarten, your grandmother walked me to school. Then, your uncle was supposed to walk me, but he mostly ditched me by the time we reached the first telephone pole.
Anne: Is this the one about the other kids throwing stones at you? I have heard this one. Many times.
Me: No, no, no! That was in 5th grade. I hope those little shits all ended up like Honey Boo Boo's mom. No, no stone throwing in this one. So, I was walking to kindergarten, and I saw this basset hound. I had never seen one before...
Anne: OMG, Mom. Does the dog die? I am not listening if the dog dies.
Me: Shut up and listen. I am setting a mood. So little me and my bookbag are walking down the street to my school, which was at the top of the street. And there's this basset hound in a front yard across the street, just staring at me. Except he's wearing a little yellow rain slicker and little yellow boots! It was the late 70's! No one put clothes on dogs!
Anne: Who's dog was it?
Me: Some old lady who wore pantsuits. And neckerchiefs. Anyway, I had never seen the dog before LET ALONE A DOG IN A RAINCOAT! It was amazing!
Anne: Cute! So, now does the dog die?
Me: Shut up. So, I stood there for a while and tried to will the basset hound to cross the street and play with me, but he just stared at me. And I wasn't allowed to cross the street. So I decided to sing him a song because he looked sad.
Anne: Hate to break it to you, Mom, but all basset hounds look sad.
Me: I WAS 5!!! So, I sat down on the curb and sang all the songs I knew to him: Happy Birthday, Away in a Manger, Jesus Loves Me, and this one I made up about 4 blue jays. I can't remember how that one goes...
Anne: Thank you, Jesus!
Me: Anyway, next thing I knew, your grandmother comes charging up the street screaming at me. I guess the school called her and told her I hadn't shown up and she came looking for me.
Anne: Oh my God, Mom! How long were you singing at that dog?
Me: Well, I sang each song multiple times. And made up verses. And I tried to tempt him with a stick. He never moved. He just stood there in his little booties, staring at me.
Anne: Do you think the old lady in the pantsuit was watching you from her window and laughing at you? I bet she was.
Me: IT HAD NEVER OCCURRED TO ME, ANNE! THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS MEMORY MORE PAINFUL!
Anne: Also, maybe that's why the other kids threw stones at you. I'm just saying.
Me: I never did pet that basset hound. (sigh)
Anne: How can anyone's childhood be so miserable! Don't you have one happy memory? Just one?
Me: No. Wait.... ummmm.... no.
Anne: What about a teddy bear? Didn't you have a nice teddy that you loved?
Me: DO NOT GO THERE! I DID NOT HAVE A TEDDY! I HAD A GIANT STUFFED THUMB THAT MY DAD GOT ME WHEN I WAS BORN AND EVERY YEAR ON TEDDY BEAR DAY I WAS THE ONLY KID WITH A GIANT THUMB AND EVERYONE LAUGHED AT ME!
Anne: Oh my God, that's awesome! I mean... I love you, Mom.
Me: Nice try.
Anne: What about a favorite book? You love books! What was your favorite book when you were my age?
Me: Oh, that's easy! The Girl With The Silver Eyes! I loved that book!
Anne: See! A happy memory! What was it about?
Me: Ooooh! It was about this girl with silver eyes and she was telekinetic and she had no friends and she ate thick peanut butter sandwiches and orange juice for lunch just like I did! Peanut butter and orange juice was my number one favorite. Number 2 was a mayonnaise sandwich, which probably explains my ass. Her eyes were silver because her mom took this medicine when she was pregnant. Like the flipper children. Never mind. Forget I said that.
Anne: Those are the most disgusting lunches I can imagine. We'll come back to the flippers. You're gross. Is that why the kids threw stones at you?
Me: SO ANYWAY... I figured I must be telekinetic too. I mean, I don't have silver eyes, but my one eye is half brown and half blue so I figured I could move smallish things or maybe start fires. So you know what I did?
Anne: What?
Me: I took a picture of my friend Jenny and set it on my dresser and spent several nights willing it to move.
Anne: No. You. Did. Not.
Me: And then one day I noticed it was gone! I found it in a drawer! So, I figured I had moved it with my mind while I was asleep! I told everyone I had telekinesis! But your grandmother was going through her "doily on the head evangelical" phase and I am pretty sure everyone thought I was a satanist.
Anne: I do that. I try to move things with my mind every night. It's not working yet. I think I'm close. And when I was 6, I spent, like, months trying to fly off the couch or my bed. And the stairs.
Me: How did that work out for you?
Anne: Nothing. Once I thought for sure I went up a little bit, but that was it. I was really surprised that I couldn't fly. I really thought I could. I still do.
Me: Untie one of those bags from your arms. The craptastic wonder twins strike again!
Anne: They are ruining my look. Ooooh! The bags! They're like sails! I can fly!
Me: Yes, you can, baby girl. Here. Hold the poop bag.
~dana
Friday, August 24, 2012
Part Two
So, where were we? Ah, yes. My faith. If you need a primer, please have another look at the first installment of I Am Probably Damned To Hell.
Before I can tell you what happened next at church that further alienated me from my faith, we'll have to agree upon some language. My family is fairly immigrant. We did not learn traditional or especially politically correct terms for special groups of people. I have several cousins that have cerebral palsy and as an adult I know that is the appropriate medical term. But as a child, my grandmother referred to them a The Spastics. For example, " Your Great Aunt is coming in for the party but I think she's only bringing one of The Spastics," or "Your cousin Teddy The Spastic says he's going to Poland to see the relatives but I can't imagine how the hell he'll get there." Actually, I was in high school before I realized that they weren't even my cousins. They were my second or third cousins. We never differentiated. My Aunt Mitzi? Found out she was my grandma's twin sister. Everyone was a cousin, aunt or uncle.
My grandma was a sweet woman. Kind, generous, warm and funny. My best friend ever. A tiny little woman with an accent and a twinkle in her eye. I loved her more than anything in the world. But she learned racial terms in the 30's and hung onto them until she died. When my grandfather had emergency surgery at the Cleveland Clinic...
Me: How's grandpa? I miss him. Give him a hug for me.
Grandma: Dr. Chink says he's doing good and he'll be home soon! And for a Chink, he's a good doctor! Except I think he's a little sneaky. But he's so small. Who can say?
Me: Oh my God, Grandma, don't call him that! He saved Grandpa's life! He's Asian! Say "Asian!"
Grandma: Listen, I can't tell those people apart. And I can't say his name, either. Anyway, he doesn't seem to mind.
or...
as Winston and I drove her to a rehearsal dinner...
Grandma: Are we there yet? Why is it taking so long? Why are you driving so fast?
Me: Look, Grandma, we're here! This is the restaurant!
Grandma: Oh, it's a dego place. I hate dego food.
Me: Grandma! Shame on you! You have a daughter-in-law who's Italian! Don't say "dego!" That's terrible! You can't say things like that!
Grandma: Eye-talian, Dego, whatever. I hate their food.
Black people. African Americans. People of color. Nope. She called them "The Negra" until the day she died. It didn't matter if it was one person or 50. The Negra.
Native Americans?
Me: Winston and I are getting married! I want you to be my matron of honor. I love you so much, Grandma.
Grandma: What nationality is he? (hopefully) Polish?
Me: Actually, he's Cherokee Indian. Like, he's almost 3/4 Cherokee. His grandpa grew up on a reservation in Missouri. That's why he's so tan.
Grandma: Listen. Don't tell anyone he's a dirty Injun. Tell them he's Polish. No one needs to know.
Me: Grandma! Shame on you! That's my future husband you're talking about!
Grandma: I'll tell the family he's Polish. He looks Polish.
So back to the Spastics. The kids and I slunk in the side door at mass. This was our new technique: it got us up front so the kids would pay attention, and it put me in an excellent position to slink back out after NOT receiving Communion because I am saturated with sin. The kids could go up, receive Communion and then I would casually slink to the side, grab them and scoot out the door early. (Protestants: this is a perk of Catholicism: as long as you arrive in time for the Gospel reading, you are not strictly late and you can bolt after Communion. )
Now, remember, even though we had already made asses of ourselves on a regular basis, we were still new to the parish. We tended to blindly grab seats and try to act oblivious when people showed up and looked pissed that we were sitting in the pews they had probably sat in for 10 years. So, on this morning, we slid in the side door, and grabbed a pew on the left that, in retrospect, I should have realized was empty for a reason. But I was running late and the kids were fighting and Winston was out of town and it did not register that this pew was slightly offset and a wee bit larger than the other turn of the century pews. Actually, I remember thinking, "Finally! Some leg room!"
We slid into the over sized pew; first Anne, then Henry, then me. I was closest to side aisle and Anne was closest to the center aisle. The children began shoving, kicking and jabbing each other. I moved my lips in silent prayer that today would not be the day I went to jail for beating a child with a hymnal. I was also trying to focus on the after mass donuts. Mmmm, donuts. Church donuts are awesome.
Mass started and we began doing the whole up and down business that is at the heart of the Mass. When we finally parked it for the second reading (2 readings and a Gospel, for the unbelievers out there) I heard a sudden commotion in the rear of the church. Doors opening. Squeaking. Banging. I remember thinking smugly to myself, " Humph. At least my kids are quiet for once. Maybe it doesn't always have to be me! Things are looking up!" But the noise continued. It made me think of a elementary school janitor moving his giant cart through the hallway. I turned to look a what the ruckus was and saw...
Two men. With giant walkers. Picking them up and punching them down again. Tennis balls on the wheels. Various dangling accessory bags. Lots of random arm movements and twitching. Coming straight up the side aisle. Straight towards our strange little askew pew. Looking at me. I felt a cold wave pass over me. I whipped my head around and began scanning our seats frantically.
After running my hands over all available surfaces of pew, I found an indentation on the top back of the pew. Recessed inside, the size of a postage stamp, was a tiny symbol.
"Holy Fuck! We're sitting in the Spastics pew!"
Yes, in an attempt to be subtle and in keeping with a "holy aesthetic," my church had labeled a pew so vaguely that I had sat in it. And was now being born down upon by two slowly advancing Spastics. And all of my education and adult onset sensitivities about the handicapped flew out the window as I clung to my childhood and I head my grandmothers voice say,
"What do you want me to call your cousins? Their own mother calls them the Spastics! That's what doctors used to call it! I'm not calling it something new every time people change their minds!"
I had a sudden memory of dancing with my cousin Teddy at my wedding. He was clutching me rather inappropriately and as we danced I was trying to decide if he was a pervert or if the clutching was simply part of his spasms. If I had to describe it, I would say our dance looked like a bride trying to whirl around and escape a giant squid. After being unable to detach him from my person after 2 songs, my mother marched up, grabbed him and hissed, "For Gods sake, Teddy, leave her alone! Get off of her!" I stood there wondering if I had, in fact, just been molested by my Spastic cousin.
That question was answered several years later, during one of the last conversations I had with my grandma before she died. We were eating cinnamon rolls and drinking tea at her kitchen table...
Grandma: I guess now your cousin Teddy the Spastic is telling everyone he's A Gay.
Me: Come on, Grandma. Who cares? You can't be upset about it; how many other gay family members do we have now? It's old news.
Grandma: I don't care that he says he's A Gay. What's bothering me is how he knows. He's been living with his mother for the last 40 some years. He can't drive! Who is he planning on being A Gay with? And who'd have him?
Back to the church. I found myself wondering: our church is the very definition of "not handicapped accessible." It was built in the 20's. How the hell did they even get in the building? There are literally dozens of steps at every door! The Spastics slowly charged at me with their walkers. All eyes in the church followed their slow progression. I frantically considered my options: I had none. All the surrounding pews were full. Getting up and moving was equally unthinkable because I knew my kids would not just move silently because I nudged them: they would LOUDLY demand a full explanation. I began to sweat.
Have you ever used the handicapped stall in the bathroom because it tends to be 80% cleaner than the other ones and always has a place to put your purse? And then opened the door and came out to a shockingly handicapped woman leaning angrily on the wall, waiting for the handicapped stall? Yeah. I felt like that. There is no high ground.
I did a quick calculation. If we all scoonched over, there would be room for both Spastics and their walkers. The Spastics were now 4 pews away and beginning to make groaning noises about hauling their asses all the way down the aisle to find THEIR seats were taken by a tattooed harlot and her children. I could feel the hot weight of every eye in the church on me. So...
I elbowed Henry.
Me: Henry! Scoot over! Please just scoot and ask your sister to scoot! Quietly!
Henry: WHAT, MOM?
Me: Shhhhh!!! Just scoot!
Henry: ANNE WON"T MOVE! WHY DO WE HAVE TO SIT WITH HER? SHE SHOULD GO IN THE BABY CRYING ROOM.
Anne: I'M GONNA KILL YOU, HENRY!
Me: For the love of God, please shut up and move down! We are in their seat!
Henry: WHOSE SEATS?
Me: The Spastics!
Henry: FINE! I'LL MAKE ANNE MOVE.
My son leaned forward and dramatically shoved his sister to the right. She shoved back. He responded with a combination shove and kick. She squealed. Then I heard a loud metallic scraping noise.
I had placed my purse on the floor. And set my car keys next to it. On the cold stone church floor. His foot had connected with my huge ring of keys and sent it skittering 15 feet across the floor, under several pews and finally coming to a rest in front of the altar. Slightly off center.
Father glared at me and my keys from the lofty height of the altar. The Spastics, arriving at the pew, began groaning at me. My children, now aware of their imminent death at the hands of their mother, had scooted clean out of the pew into another zip code and were sitting angelically.
Me: OH MY GOD I AM SO SORRY!
The Spastics groaned some more and slowly moved off to the side door, clanging all the way, the door slamming behind them. They left. I wanted to stand up and scream, "How handicapped can they be??? There are 9 stairs and two doors out that way and you all know it! I am not an animal!!! Stop looking at me!!!"
Instead, I sat in silent shame. Mass, which had halted so everyone could enjoy my discomfort, restarted. I waited until the priest turned his back to mess with the tiny golden castle the Host lives in and then I crab walked up to the altar, grabbed my car keys and then turned and crawled on my hands and knees back to the pew of shame. I thought if I stayed low to the ground no one would notice, but as I climbed back into the pew, I looked up to find the eyes of the Father upon me and wondered how long he had been watching a grown woman crawl across the church.
And I remembered the shortest verse of the Bible and, for me, the most eloquent:
"Jesus wept."
~dana
Before I can tell you what happened next at church that further alienated me from my faith, we'll have to agree upon some language. My family is fairly immigrant. We did not learn traditional or especially politically correct terms for special groups of people. I have several cousins that have cerebral palsy and as an adult I know that is the appropriate medical term. But as a child, my grandmother referred to them a The Spastics. For example, " Your Great Aunt is coming in for the party but I think she's only bringing one of The Spastics," or "Your cousin Teddy The Spastic says he's going to Poland to see the relatives but I can't imagine how the hell he'll get there." Actually, I was in high school before I realized that they weren't even my cousins. They were my second or third cousins. We never differentiated. My Aunt Mitzi? Found out she was my grandma's twin sister. Everyone was a cousin, aunt or uncle.
My grandma was a sweet woman. Kind, generous, warm and funny. My best friend ever. A tiny little woman with an accent and a twinkle in her eye. I loved her more than anything in the world. But she learned racial terms in the 30's and hung onto them until she died. When my grandfather had emergency surgery at the Cleveland Clinic...
Me: How's grandpa? I miss him. Give him a hug for me.
Grandma: Dr. Chink says he's doing good and he'll be home soon! And for a Chink, he's a good doctor! Except I think he's a little sneaky. But he's so small. Who can say?
Me: Oh my God, Grandma, don't call him that! He saved Grandpa's life! He's Asian! Say "Asian!"
Grandma: Listen, I can't tell those people apart. And I can't say his name, either. Anyway, he doesn't seem to mind.
or...
as Winston and I drove her to a rehearsal dinner...
Grandma: Are we there yet? Why is it taking so long? Why are you driving so fast?
Me: Look, Grandma, we're here! This is the restaurant!
Grandma: Oh, it's a dego place. I hate dego food.
Me: Grandma! Shame on you! You have a daughter-in-law who's Italian! Don't say "dego!" That's terrible! You can't say things like that!
Grandma: Eye-talian, Dego, whatever. I hate their food.
Black people. African Americans. People of color. Nope. She called them "The Negra" until the day she died. It didn't matter if it was one person or 50. The Negra.
Native Americans?
Me: Winston and I are getting married! I want you to be my matron of honor. I love you so much, Grandma.
Grandma: What nationality is he? (hopefully) Polish?
Me: Actually, he's Cherokee Indian. Like, he's almost 3/4 Cherokee. His grandpa grew up on a reservation in Missouri. That's why he's so tan.
Grandma: Listen. Don't tell anyone he's a dirty Injun. Tell them he's Polish. No one needs to know.
Me: Grandma! Shame on you! That's my future husband you're talking about!
Grandma: I'll tell the family he's Polish. He looks Polish.
So back to the Spastics. The kids and I slunk in the side door at mass. This was our new technique: it got us up front so the kids would pay attention, and it put me in an excellent position to slink back out after NOT receiving Communion because I am saturated with sin. The kids could go up, receive Communion and then I would casually slink to the side, grab them and scoot out the door early. (Protestants: this is a perk of Catholicism: as long as you arrive in time for the Gospel reading, you are not strictly late and you can bolt after Communion. )
Now, remember, even though we had already made asses of ourselves on a regular basis, we were still new to the parish. We tended to blindly grab seats and try to act oblivious when people showed up and looked pissed that we were sitting in the pews they had probably sat in for 10 years. So, on this morning, we slid in the side door, and grabbed a pew on the left that, in retrospect, I should have realized was empty for a reason. But I was running late and the kids were fighting and Winston was out of town and it did not register that this pew was slightly offset and a wee bit larger than the other turn of the century pews. Actually, I remember thinking, "Finally! Some leg room!"
We slid into the over sized pew; first Anne, then Henry, then me. I was closest to side aisle and Anne was closest to the center aisle. The children began shoving, kicking and jabbing each other. I moved my lips in silent prayer that today would not be the day I went to jail for beating a child with a hymnal. I was also trying to focus on the after mass donuts. Mmmm, donuts. Church donuts are awesome.
Mass started and we began doing the whole up and down business that is at the heart of the Mass. When we finally parked it for the second reading (2 readings and a Gospel, for the unbelievers out there) I heard a sudden commotion in the rear of the church. Doors opening. Squeaking. Banging. I remember thinking smugly to myself, " Humph. At least my kids are quiet for once. Maybe it doesn't always have to be me! Things are looking up!" But the noise continued. It made me think of a elementary school janitor moving his giant cart through the hallway. I turned to look a what the ruckus was and saw...
Two men. With giant walkers. Picking them up and punching them down again. Tennis balls on the wheels. Various dangling accessory bags. Lots of random arm movements and twitching. Coming straight up the side aisle. Straight towards our strange little askew pew. Looking at me. I felt a cold wave pass over me. I whipped my head around and began scanning our seats frantically.
After running my hands over all available surfaces of pew, I found an indentation on the top back of the pew. Recessed inside, the size of a postage stamp, was a tiny symbol.
"Holy Fuck! We're sitting in the Spastics pew!"
Yes, in an attempt to be subtle and in keeping with a "holy aesthetic," my church had labeled a pew so vaguely that I had sat in it. And was now being born down upon by two slowly advancing Spastics. And all of my education and adult onset sensitivities about the handicapped flew out the window as I clung to my childhood and I head my grandmothers voice say,
"What do you want me to call your cousins? Their own mother calls them the Spastics! That's what doctors used to call it! I'm not calling it something new every time people change their minds!"
I had a sudden memory of dancing with my cousin Teddy at my wedding. He was clutching me rather inappropriately and as we danced I was trying to decide if he was a pervert or if the clutching was simply part of his spasms. If I had to describe it, I would say our dance looked like a bride trying to whirl around and escape a giant squid. After being unable to detach him from my person after 2 songs, my mother marched up, grabbed him and hissed, "For Gods sake, Teddy, leave her alone! Get off of her!" I stood there wondering if I had, in fact, just been molested by my Spastic cousin.
That question was answered several years later, during one of the last conversations I had with my grandma before she died. We were eating cinnamon rolls and drinking tea at her kitchen table...
Grandma: I guess now your cousin Teddy the Spastic is telling everyone he's A Gay.
Me: Come on, Grandma. Who cares? You can't be upset about it; how many other gay family members do we have now? It's old news.
Grandma: I don't care that he says he's A Gay. What's bothering me is how he knows. He's been living with his mother for the last 40 some years. He can't drive! Who is he planning on being A Gay with? And who'd have him?
Back to the church. I found myself wondering: our church is the very definition of "not handicapped accessible." It was built in the 20's. How the hell did they even get in the building? There are literally dozens of steps at every door! The Spastics slowly charged at me with their walkers. All eyes in the church followed their slow progression. I frantically considered my options: I had none. All the surrounding pews were full. Getting up and moving was equally unthinkable because I knew my kids would not just move silently because I nudged them: they would LOUDLY demand a full explanation. I began to sweat.
Have you ever used the handicapped stall in the bathroom because it tends to be 80% cleaner than the other ones and always has a place to put your purse? And then opened the door and came out to a shockingly handicapped woman leaning angrily on the wall, waiting for the handicapped stall? Yeah. I felt like that. There is no high ground.
I did a quick calculation. If we all scoonched over, there would be room for both Spastics and their walkers. The Spastics were now 4 pews away and beginning to make groaning noises about hauling their asses all the way down the aisle to find THEIR seats were taken by a tattooed harlot and her children. I could feel the hot weight of every eye in the church on me. So...
I elbowed Henry.
Me: Henry! Scoot over! Please just scoot and ask your sister to scoot! Quietly!
Henry: WHAT, MOM?
Me: Shhhhh!!! Just scoot!
Henry: ANNE WON"T MOVE! WHY DO WE HAVE TO SIT WITH HER? SHE SHOULD GO IN THE BABY CRYING ROOM.
Anne: I'M GONNA KILL YOU, HENRY!
Me: For the love of God, please shut up and move down! We are in their seat!
Henry: WHOSE SEATS?
Me: The Spastics!
Henry: FINE! I'LL MAKE ANNE MOVE.
My son leaned forward and dramatically shoved his sister to the right. She shoved back. He responded with a combination shove and kick. She squealed. Then I heard a loud metallic scraping noise.
I had placed my purse on the floor. And set my car keys next to it. On the cold stone church floor. His foot had connected with my huge ring of keys and sent it skittering 15 feet across the floor, under several pews and finally coming to a rest in front of the altar. Slightly off center.
Father glared at me and my keys from the lofty height of the altar. The Spastics, arriving at the pew, began groaning at me. My children, now aware of their imminent death at the hands of their mother, had scooted clean out of the pew into another zip code and were sitting angelically.
Me: OH MY GOD I AM SO SORRY!
The Spastics groaned some more and slowly moved off to the side door, clanging all the way, the door slamming behind them. They left. I wanted to stand up and scream, "How handicapped can they be??? There are 9 stairs and two doors out that way and you all know it! I am not an animal!!! Stop looking at me!!!"
Instead, I sat in silent shame. Mass, which had halted so everyone could enjoy my discomfort, restarted. I waited until the priest turned his back to mess with the tiny golden castle the Host lives in and then I crab walked up to the altar, grabbed my car keys and then turned and crawled on my hands and knees back to the pew of shame. I thought if I stayed low to the ground no one would notice, but as I climbed back into the pew, I looked up to find the eyes of the Father upon me and wondered how long he had been watching a grown woman crawl across the church.
And I remembered the shortest verse of the Bible and, for me, the most eloquent:
"Jesus wept."
~dana
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Summer of 2012
It's bad enough that I'm all weepy pathetic about my kids going back to school tomorrow, but then I woke up this morning with a crappy Kenny Rogers song running through my head. I have spent the day on the verge of tears with a slow motion montage of my summer running through my head. And I can't get this goddamn song out of my head. Come on a journey with me, if you will, of sadness. The party's over. Sing it, Kenny... If you can, play the song as you read; it really adds something.
My daughter... bored at my brothers furniture-less apartment... amusing herself with plastic bags...
Sleeping peacefully on the floor at the same apartment... under the tender gaze of my children...
Receiving strange notes from my daughter; her approximations of tickets that police give out...
My neighbors discovering that Jesus is their homeboy...
My butt white son selecting sunscreen and missing the point entirely...
The whole family encountering a passed out custom ring maker/pirate in Geneva-on-the-Lake...
A rainbow shining bravely over our money pit, immediately following the electrical fire in the basement...
The peaceful joy of poking things with sticks at the beach with my children...
Getting to see Agatha again, after far too long...
Shopping for friend's birthday parties and finding the best presents...
Going to my 20 year reunion and getting so hammered I remember very little and got one picture. That Shirley's husband took. When he got so wasted he became obsessed with random details, like fingernails. This is all I have to remember my reunion.
My husband teaching me things I didn't want to know...
The weeks of random antennae...
Traveling up north; seeing things we thought were extinct...
Leisurely day trips to exotic, educational places...
Wearing plastic gloves with Agatha so we wouldn't fingerprint mirrors...
Being super excited for Agatha to come home so we could greet her...
Realizing my son intended to spend the entire summer on Xbox Live killing people with guns...
Watching with joy as he reconnected with nature in the great outdoors...
Learning that no matter how far you travel, you can't escape your past...
It's so sad. I hate to see another year go by. And then today... I took the kids to the beach for a picnic to end the summer. We sat on a grassy hill near the sand and started unwrapping our sub sandwiches and eating them; enjoying the sun, pervasive fragrance of Lake Erie and a warm breeze...
Anne: Oh no.
Me: What? What's wrong?
Anne: Here comes my food, back up again...
Me: What are you talking about? Are you sick?
Anne: I'm gonna be. Look at that dude!
Henry: Mom, don't look. You'll die. Trust me. I am not looking again. That's messed up.
Me: I must look. I have no choice.
Henry: I warned you.
I turned and saw...
He did. He warned me.
~dana
My daughter... bored at my brothers furniture-less apartment... amusing herself with plastic bags...
Sleeping peacefully on the floor at the same apartment... under the tender gaze of my children...
Receiving strange notes from my daughter; her approximations of tickets that police give out...
My neighbors discovering that Jesus is their homeboy...
My butt white son selecting sunscreen and missing the point entirely...
The whole family encountering a passed out custom ring maker/pirate in Geneva-on-the-Lake...
A rainbow shining bravely over our money pit, immediately following the electrical fire in the basement...
The peaceful joy of poking things with sticks at the beach with my children...
Getting to see Agatha again, after far too long...
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| She managed to convince me that I have fleas. She is so clever. |
Shopping for friend's birthday parties and finding the best presents...
Going to my 20 year reunion and getting so hammered I remember very little and got one picture. That Shirley's husband took. When he got so wasted he became obsessed with random details, like fingernails. This is all I have to remember my reunion.
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| I think the black fingernails are mine. |
My husband teaching me things I didn't want to know...
The weeks of random antennae...
Traveling up north; seeing things we thought were extinct...
Leisurely day trips to exotic, educational places...
Wearing plastic gloves with Agatha so we wouldn't fingerprint mirrors...
Being super excited for Agatha to come home so we could greet her...
Realizing my son intended to spend the entire summer on Xbox Live killing people with guns...
Watching with joy as he reconnected with nature in the great outdoors...
Learning that no matter how far you travel, you can't escape your past...
It's so sad. I hate to see another year go by. And then today... I took the kids to the beach for a picnic to end the summer. We sat on a grassy hill near the sand and started unwrapping our sub sandwiches and eating them; enjoying the sun, pervasive fragrance of Lake Erie and a warm breeze...
Anne: Oh no.
Me: What? What's wrong?
Anne: Here comes my food, back up again...
Me: What are you talking about? Are you sick?
Anne: I'm gonna be. Look at that dude!
Henry: Mom, don't look. You'll die. Trust me. I am not looking again. That's messed up.
Me: I must look. I have no choice.
Henry: I warned you.
I turned and saw...
He did. He warned me.
~dana
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Sweet Jesus
Things have gone horribly wrong between me and the Catholic Church. I know exactly when it happened. It involved the porch of the rectory, a hobo, a pirate ship, my bra and the Knights of Columbus. Oh, and 2 people with cerebral palsy with walkers. And my God, some things you just can't get past.
It all started when I applied to join our new parish 2.5 years ago. I met with the priest, who seemed like a nice young man (which is kinda weird because everyone knows there are no young priests. It's super hard to sell celibacy these days.) Me and the kids were talking companionably with the priest on the porch of the rectory, when the priest used his Jedi mind tricks to pull the rug out from under me...
Priest: So, you were baptized and raised Catholic?
Me: Yep.
Priest: And your husband was baptized Lutheran.
Me: Yep. Whatareyagonnado... am I right? Love is blind.
Priest: But, let me see if I have this straight: You were married in a Lutheran Church?
Me: Yeah. The one across the street. I think its foot-washing Baptist now...
Priest: And your husband converted to Catholicism 7 years ago?
Me: Yep.
Priest: Then I am sorry to say, "Mrs." McSwain, but the Catholic Church does not recognize your marriage. You and your husband live in a state of sin. You'll have to go through marriage counseling and get married in a Catholic Church to absolve your sin. That means you cannot receive Holy Communion or be godparents.
Me: Holy sh... Are you serious? I've been married, like 13 years! I don't want to get married again! Counseling? For what? We have two kids! If that doesn't work out all the kinks, nothing does!
Priest: (stony silence)
So, I left in a bit of huff. I decided to pout about it and refuse to receive Communion because that would teach him. (I've always been a "cut off my nose" kinda girl) Me and the kids continued to attend Mass.
Week 1
I was certain (paranoia) that the priest was eyeballing me during Communion to make sure I didn't try to sneak up. But that wasn't the worst part:
Me: (whispering) Henry, go up without me and take your sister. Remember to bow and say "amen," for the love of God.
Henry: (out door voice) WHY AREN'T YOU GOING UP FOR COMMUNION, MOM?
Me: (hissing) Shut up right now. I will kill you in the parking lot. Just get up there right now.
Henry: FINE, MOM, WE'LL GO UP FOR COMMUNION WITHOUT YOU.
Which left me with the sweet pleasure of the stares and whispers of EVERY DAMN PARENT OF MY KIDS CLASSMATES AROUND ME.
Snooty Mom: OMG! Henry and Anne's tattooed mom can't receive Communion!
Snooty Dad: Our kids don't go to their house, do they? I don't want them hanging around the kids of the Bride of Satan! Don't arm tattoos mean lesbian?
Week 2
We arrive early and get seats in the third row. Because I decided not to cower in shame and also, so my kids focus on the Mass. The seat ahead of us was empty until a hobo with a knapsack, wearing a t-shirt with a giant cinnamon roll on it wandered in (urban parish; it happens) and of course, sat right the fuck in front of us. Me and the kids started poking each other and giggling about the t-shirt. A stern glance from the priest silenced us.
But not the Cinnamon Roll Hobo. He was super excited to get his Jesus on. Everytime the priest spoke..
Priest: InthenameoftheFatherandoftheSonandoftheHolySpiritAmen...
Cinnamon Roll Hobo: JESUS! JESUS! SAVE ME JESUS!
Priest: (dirty look)
Priest: ThegraceofourLordJesusChristandtheloveofGodandthefellowshipoftheHolySpiritbewithyouall.
Cinnamon Roll Hobo: JESUS! JESUS! SWEET JESUS!
I mean, it went on and on. Every single time the priest spoke, the hobo started wailing. (I think he meant to be across the street with the foot-washing Baptists...) Me and the kids were turning red from the exertion of not laughing out loud. I kept trying to jab the kids in their ribs so they would understand they could in no way bust out, because we were 11 feet from the altar.
Priest: MayalmightyGodcleanseusofoursinsandthroughtheEucharistwecelebratemakeusworthytositat histableinhisheavenlykingdom.
Hobo: SWEET LAMB OF GOD! JESUS CHRIST!
At this point, Father had had enough. He came storming down of the altar and stopped right in front of the hobo. I think they teach them in the Seminary how to talk with out moving their lips, because boy did he let that hobo have it, but we, only 2 feet away, couldn't make out a word. I imagine it went something like this:
Priest: If I hear one more "JESUS" out of you and your cinnamon roll shirt, things are gonna get real, buddy. I have been working on this sweet sermon all week and you are making me break character. I'm opening with a joke and you and your "SWEET JESUS" is going to ruin it. I will take you down, do you hear me?
Hobo: OH FATHER! FORGIVE ME! FORGIVE ME!
Father had the strength (and naive hope) to return to the altar and try to finish Mass, amidst the mumbled "forgive me's" of the hobo. Me and the kids were barely holding it together. I was sweating from the effort of not laughing and jabbing my kids.
That's when the hobo decided to amp up his game. He reached in his knapsack and pulled out a 8 x 10 picture frame. Holding it high above his head, like an icon, he slowly rotated 360' the whole while wailing, "JEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSUUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSS!" The kids and I were wheezing and clutching our stomachs, hunched over and missed seeing the actual picture on the first two rotations. I couldn't say what Father was doing, up there on the altar. My guess would be stretching out to deliver an ass kicking.
On the third rotation, we finally saw what picture the hobo was flashing to the whole congregation. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Father had parked himself center stage at the altar and looked ready to unleash the wrath of God. The hobo and his cinnamon roll shirt slowly pivoted to face us and we saw...
Yes. He was slowly rotating in a circle, in the second row of a Catholic church, with a giant picture of a pirate ship. In a cinnamon roll t-shirt.
And that's when the giant, wracking squeals and snorts exploded out of me and the kids. I tend to snort spastically when I am overcome with mirth. We were totally helpless. The rest of the congregation must have been made of sterner stuff than we, because they all stood there, staring in horror at the blasphemy of the hobo, and probably the blasphemy of the mom and kids adjacent who were squealing joyously at the whole business.
Father began his rage filled descent from the altar. The hobo quickly stuffed the pirate ship and a hymnal in his backpack, saluted the congregation and sprinted for the back door. I finally willed myself upright and wiped the tears of laughter from my eyes. The kids were joyously hooting; transported to another place from the ecstasy of being front row center to something awesome finally happening at Mass. Somewhere, I heard the sound of the doors slamming behind the sprinting hobo. And I found myself staring into the eyes of Father, who had come to a full stop in front of us: the "unwed" tattooed hussy and her hooting offspring. He did not look pleased.
It's been pretty much downhill ever since. I don't think I can share anymore humiliation today. I need to go lay down with a wet towel on my eyes. Next time, I will tell you how my bra betrayed me during Mass. And how 2 people with some sort of palsy told me off loudly during another Mass and I ended up crab walking to the altar.
~dana
It all started when I applied to join our new parish 2.5 years ago. I met with the priest, who seemed like a nice young man (which is kinda weird because everyone knows there are no young priests. It's super hard to sell celibacy these days.) Me and the kids were talking companionably with the priest on the porch of the rectory, when the priest used his Jedi mind tricks to pull the rug out from under me...
Priest: So, you were baptized and raised Catholic?
Me: Yep.
Priest: And your husband was baptized Lutheran.
Me: Yep. Whatareyagonnado... am I right? Love is blind.
Priest: But, let me see if I have this straight: You were married in a Lutheran Church?
Me: Yeah. The one across the street. I think its foot-washing Baptist now...
Priest: And your husband converted to Catholicism 7 years ago?
Me: Yep.
Priest: Then I am sorry to say, "Mrs." McSwain, but the Catholic Church does not recognize your marriage. You and your husband live in a state of sin. You'll have to go through marriage counseling and get married in a Catholic Church to absolve your sin. That means you cannot receive Holy Communion or be godparents.
Me: Holy sh... Are you serious? I've been married, like 13 years! I don't want to get married again! Counseling? For what? We have two kids! If that doesn't work out all the kinks, nothing does!
Priest: (stony silence)
So, I left in a bit of huff. I decided to pout about it and refuse to receive Communion because that would teach him. (I've always been a "cut off my nose" kinda girl) Me and the kids continued to attend Mass.
Week 1
I was certain (paranoia) that the priest was eyeballing me during Communion to make sure I didn't try to sneak up. But that wasn't the worst part:
Me: (whispering) Henry, go up without me and take your sister. Remember to bow and say "amen," for the love of God.
Henry: (out door voice) WHY AREN'T YOU GOING UP FOR COMMUNION, MOM?
Me: (hissing) Shut up right now. I will kill you in the parking lot. Just get up there right now.
Henry: FINE, MOM, WE'LL GO UP FOR COMMUNION WITHOUT YOU.
Which left me with the sweet pleasure of the stares and whispers of EVERY DAMN PARENT OF MY KIDS CLASSMATES AROUND ME.
Snooty Mom: OMG! Henry and Anne's tattooed mom can't receive Communion!
Snooty Dad: Our kids don't go to their house, do they? I don't want them hanging around the kids of the Bride of Satan! Don't arm tattoos mean lesbian?
Week 2
We arrive early and get seats in the third row. Because I decided not to cower in shame and also, so my kids focus on the Mass. The seat ahead of us was empty until a hobo with a knapsack, wearing a t-shirt with a giant cinnamon roll on it wandered in (urban parish; it happens) and of course, sat right the fuck in front of us. Me and the kids started poking each other and giggling about the t-shirt. A stern glance from the priest silenced us.
But not the Cinnamon Roll Hobo. He was super excited to get his Jesus on. Everytime the priest spoke..
Priest: InthenameoftheFatherandoftheSonandoftheHolySpiritAmen...
Cinnamon Roll Hobo: JESUS! JESUS! SAVE ME JESUS!
Priest: (dirty look)
Priest: ThegraceofourLordJesusChristandtheloveofGodandthefellowshipoftheHolySpiritbewithyouall.
Cinnamon Roll Hobo: JESUS! JESUS! SWEET JESUS!
I mean, it went on and on. Every single time the priest spoke, the hobo started wailing. (I think he meant to be across the street with the foot-washing Baptists...) Me and the kids were turning red from the exertion of not laughing out loud. I kept trying to jab the kids in their ribs so they would understand they could in no way bust out, because we were 11 feet from the altar.
Priest: MayalmightyGodcleanseusofoursinsandthroughtheEucharistwecelebratemakeusworthytositat histableinhisheavenlykingdom.
Hobo: SWEET LAMB OF GOD! JESUS CHRIST!
At this point, Father had had enough. He came storming down of the altar and stopped right in front of the hobo. I think they teach them in the Seminary how to talk with out moving their lips, because boy did he let that hobo have it, but we, only 2 feet away, couldn't make out a word. I imagine it went something like this:
Priest: If I hear one more "JESUS" out of you and your cinnamon roll shirt, things are gonna get real, buddy. I have been working on this sweet sermon all week and you are making me break character. I'm opening with a joke and you and your "SWEET JESUS" is going to ruin it. I will take you down, do you hear me?
Hobo: OH FATHER! FORGIVE ME! FORGIVE ME!
Father had the strength (and naive hope) to return to the altar and try to finish Mass, amidst the mumbled "forgive me's" of the hobo. Me and the kids were barely holding it together. I was sweating from the effort of not laughing and jabbing my kids.
That's when the hobo decided to amp up his game. He reached in his knapsack and pulled out a 8 x 10 picture frame. Holding it high above his head, like an icon, he slowly rotated 360' the whole while wailing, "JEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSUUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSS!" The kids and I were wheezing and clutching our stomachs, hunched over and missed seeing the actual picture on the first two rotations. I couldn't say what Father was doing, up there on the altar. My guess would be stretching out to deliver an ass kicking.
On the third rotation, we finally saw what picture the hobo was flashing to the whole congregation. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Father had parked himself center stage at the altar and looked ready to unleash the wrath of God. The hobo and his cinnamon roll shirt slowly pivoted to face us and we saw...
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"JJJJJJJEEEEEEESSSSSUUUUUUUSSSSSS!!!!!"
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Yes. He was slowly rotating in a circle, in the second row of a Catholic church, with a giant picture of a pirate ship. In a cinnamon roll t-shirt.
And that's when the giant, wracking squeals and snorts exploded out of me and the kids. I tend to snort spastically when I am overcome with mirth. We were totally helpless. The rest of the congregation must have been made of sterner stuff than we, because they all stood there, staring in horror at the blasphemy of the hobo, and probably the blasphemy of the mom and kids adjacent who were squealing joyously at the whole business.
Father began his rage filled descent from the altar. The hobo quickly stuffed the pirate ship and a hymnal in his backpack, saluted the congregation and sprinted for the back door. I finally willed myself upright and wiped the tears of laughter from my eyes. The kids were joyously hooting; transported to another place from the ecstasy of being front row center to something awesome finally happening at Mass. Somewhere, I heard the sound of the doors slamming behind the sprinting hobo. And I found myself staring into the eyes of Father, who had come to a full stop in front of us: the "unwed" tattooed hussy and her hooting offspring. He did not look pleased.
It's been pretty much downhill ever since. I don't think I can share anymore humiliation today. I need to go lay down with a wet towel on my eyes. Next time, I will tell you how my bra betrayed me during Mass. And how 2 people with some sort of palsy told me off loudly during another Mass and I ended up crab walking to the altar.
~dana
Friday, August 10, 2012
The Siberian Express
Pets are not toys. They live a long time and you should give careful consideration to getting a new pet. You shouldn't just drive up to the Lakewood Animal Shelter and grab a fat 3 year old grey cat because he made eyes at you and was missing a toe. So, after a great deal of thought ... I'm bored; let's get a cat.
We got another rescue kitty. He is a giant lump of dollbaby. There is very little difference between him and a lump of pastry dough.
He is also a Russian Blue, which currently makes him the most expensive thing in our house. Based on his prestigous lineage, we decided he needed an important name... a Russian name... a name we could all agree on, unlike our previous efforts... AgnesBellaRipleyDumpsDrillerWhiteKittyPoopFace
We settled on
Ivan Drago, because the similarity is uncanny.
He is the best cat. All he wants to do is eat and be loved. The poodles adore him. The kids are obsessed with his sweet fatness. The husband was delighted I picked out a pleasant, traditional cat as opposed to the shrieking bitch of a cat that I prefer. Speaking of the shrieking bitch... his sister, Ripley, spends all her time stalking him and plotting an ass kicking...
Ivan Drago shows his affection in small ways. He chirps at us and gives little kissies. Also, he gifted us with this token of his love and fearsome power this morning. Apollo Creed the Cricket had been singing in our basement for weeks. I wonder how many rounds he went with Ivan Drago?
~dana
We got another rescue kitty. He is a giant lump of dollbaby. There is very little difference between him and a lump of pastry dough.
He is also a Russian Blue, which currently makes him the most expensive thing in our house. Based on his prestigous lineage, we decided he needed an important name... a Russian name... a name we could all agree on, unlike our previous efforts... AgnesBellaRipleyDumpsDrillerWhiteKittyPoopFace
We settled on
Ivan Drago, because the similarity is uncanny.
He is the best cat. All he wants to do is eat and be loved. The poodles adore him. The kids are obsessed with his sweet fatness. The husband was delighted I picked out a pleasant, traditional cat as opposed to the shrieking bitch of a cat that I prefer. Speaking of the shrieking bitch... his sister, Ripley, spends all her time stalking him and plotting an ass kicking...
Ivan Drago shows his affection in small ways. He chirps at us and gives little kissies. Also, he gifted us with this token of his love and fearsome power this morning. Apollo Creed the Cricket had been singing in our basement for weeks. I wonder how many rounds he went with Ivan Drago?
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| It's exactly what happened to Apollo Creed in Rocky IV |
~dana
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Massage Parlor Reunion
I had what will most certainly be the first in a deluge of nightmares about my high school reunion. Oh, yes. My 20 year reunion is this weekend. Fuck me.
I had this horrifying dream. I dreamed the reunion was not in a bowling alley, as planned. Somehow, it migrated to an Asian massage parlor and bath house.
Everyone else was laughing and vanishing up the stairs into some sort of Asian fog of mysterious sexiness. I was running around like I was mental trying to tell everyone that this wasn't the bowling alley and we needed to run away! But no one would listen!
Then I saw Winston, standing in a stairwell, deep in conversation with a taller, thinner version of myself. (This bitch is constantly in my dreams.)
I kept trying to get him to look at me but he kept laughing at me. Probably because I was jumping up and down and chirping at him like a tiny hairy hobbit. This is a frequent element of my dreams. Women who are better looking than me and lots of humiliation.
Did you see that date? Frequent. And as you can see by his response, frequent enough not to merit a conversation.
The dream ended with me hiding and sobbing under Dr. Who's (David Tennant, of course) ankle length duster on the floor in the dimly lit foyer of the massage parlor, fumbling with a lighter and trying to smoke a crushed cigarette. Sadly, David Tennant was not under the coat with me....
Damn it. I can't even dream properly. A proper dream would have me making out with Dr. Who under the coat.
When I peeked out from under the duster after sobbing and trying in vain to smoke for a while, I realized I was no longer in the massage parlor, but was now in a tiny birdhouse up a tree in a shanty town by the railroad tracks.
I am sure there's some symbolism in there somewhere. If I show up at the reunion and I see even one Asian whore, I am leaving.
~dana
I had this horrifying dream. I dreamed the reunion was not in a bowling alley, as planned. Somehow, it migrated to an Asian massage parlor and bath house.
Everyone else was laughing and vanishing up the stairs into some sort of Asian fog of mysterious sexiness. I was running around like I was mental trying to tell everyone that this wasn't the bowling alley and we needed to run away! But no one would listen!
Then I saw Winston, standing in a stairwell, deep in conversation with a taller, thinner version of myself. (This bitch is constantly in my dreams.)
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| And her hair is never frizzy. Damn it. |
I kept trying to get him to look at me but he kept laughing at me. Probably because I was jumping up and down and chirping at him like a tiny hairy hobbit. This is a frequent element of my dreams. Women who are better looking than me and lots of humiliation.
Did you see that date? Frequent. And as you can see by his response, frequent enough not to merit a conversation.
The dream ended with me hiding and sobbing under Dr. Who's (David Tennant, of course) ankle length duster on the floor in the dimly lit foyer of the massage parlor, fumbling with a lighter and trying to smoke a crushed cigarette. Sadly, David Tennant was not under the coat with me....
Damn it. I can't even dream properly. A proper dream would have me making out with Dr. Who under the coat.
When I peeked out from under the duster after sobbing and trying in vain to smoke for a while, I realized I was no longer in the massage parlor, but was now in a tiny birdhouse up a tree in a shanty town by the railroad tracks.
I am sure there's some symbolism in there somewhere. If I show up at the reunion and I see even one Asian whore, I am leaving.
~dana
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